The Weight of Want
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Here I am thinking about all the things that happened, all that could have happened and all that I made to happen. Did I make the right decisions though? Do my decisions make me an evil? Should I have chosen different paths that would have made me sleep in peace tonight rather than deciding to write a book here on wattpad because let's face it nobody cares how I feel, how I need need need to go see a psychiatrist but I just cannot speak out loud because there again who cares who would listen to my rant? After all who's left there to listen to me? I dismissed them all from my life and now I am typing it out on this app just so I don't end up killing myself.
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