I Should Have Bought Cosmo Flowers When I Had The Chance

Dear Diary Today is the first day I write about him.

Love it's a cruel thing that you can't avoid no matter how much you wish you could it still digs its claws into you and tears you apart. The thing is we humans crave it unknowingly and knowingly. For example me Han Jisung I fell in love and it bite me right back it stung for years I never thought I would get over the pain but eventually it healed and the love that was once there went away and the day it did I swore to never love again. So why now after everything I find myself losing my resolve around him this man this human being I just met why does heart race and my body heat up why does he haunt my dreams why is he always on my mind. What does this mean do I get a second go at love? Ridiculous there is no such thing as second chance soulmates I had mine I don't get another so why then why do I feel drawn to him why do I feel my fire burning bigger when he is near his eyes his smile his lips his smell even hypnotizes me into a trance. Is he a magician did he cast a spell on me? I just feel I have to know him I have to see him and hear his beautiful voice even if I am never noticed even if I lose in the end. Even if he never loves me like I love him.