Bi-Polar

*Bi-polar* - "manic depression," is a mental disorder that is characterized by serious mood swings.

People won't understand me, its better to isolate myself to them I'm afraid to socialize people might tell bad things about me that I can't handle, wait! what am I kidding I'll rather kill myself than living in this world that is full of trials, challenge. Still no one will understand my depression I'm afraid that it will worsen out and I'll be having a schizophrenia, I'm I paranoid already? My mom ---the only person who understands me who makes me calm when I get mad who always supports me anytime is now bedridden because of me, because of my illness do I really need to strive hard to this disorder that I have? I have no friends to talk with, I stop visiting my psychiatrist--drinking my medications and now I have a newborn baby and I almost kill him by not intending to hurt him is it me? or is it my Bi-polar?.