Forgive Yourself, Forgive Me
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This book is really depressing. It's one of those books where not much good happens and it's supposed to make you cry. If you like being happy i don't suggest reading this.
Keep in mind this is written by a 15 year old and this is the first full book i have ever written, i usually only do poetry. I'm really sorry if there are any spelling/grammar mistakes, i'm writing this on my phone and i'm not a great editor.
The story follows a girl in her early 20's who struggles to find herself. She looks to everyone else to point her in the direction to go because she doesn't know what to do with herself. She has lots of problems and this book is highly triggering, so read at your own risk. I will put trigger warnings at the bottom. The main character is loosely based off of me/who I think i'm going to be in the future.
I don't expect this book to be very good so you probably shouldn't either, although I have very little hope in myself so maybe don't trust my judgement. Please don't be negative in the comments, i'm not good with criticism. If you don't like the book just stop reading it.
Trigger Warnings:
TW: SH, ED, drug and alcohol abuse, just some really sad shit, swearing
I don't expect there to be any SA but if there is i will update this description and tell you before the chapter.
This story is written in first person.
P.S, I did not write this book to romanticise anything that takes place in it. I wrote it to bring awareness. Do not repeat anything in this book in real life because it is not fun i promise. I am a student and this book might take a while to write, I will try my best though. I tend to abandon projects very easily so i might give up on this.
Thank you!!
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