Some advice, and some struggles and some facts.
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Ongoing10m
Last published Thu, Apr 23, 2015
This is a story about how i feel, how i think life really is. How i really see the world for what it is.
S.T.R.U.G.G.L.E!!
why was is there, why does this happen to human, if god was really real, then why he let us have struggle or even suffer (for people who believes in god............ P.S i do too.)
read this kind of a story of my life, of how i see the world is, of how i think people and things are so cruel. Of how pain, and regret, and struggle really takes affect on us.
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