How You Left ~ A Phanfiction
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They were both in a lot of debt,
owing loan officers and trying to pay off credit card fees and in the balance, trying to keep their home.
Phil would walk past Dan's room and see Dan lay on his bed, face down shaking uncontrollably from what was unknown to Phil,
Sadness? Fear? Worry? or all the same thing in one big shit storm of crappy conclusions with loop holes... anything to just have a normal life again... and not feel guilty for Dan being stuck with a older man who couldn't even pay for socks at the minute, he felt sorry for Dan because Phil knew, when he moved in, he expected fun and games... But now that Phil didn't have a pot to piss in... He felt he was really letting Dan down... and not softly.
Dan can't cope with the stress of university and debt
he decides to leave
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