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Don't Look Back

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ONC 2024: In college, it was a case of wrong place/wrong time. Eight years later, they have a second chance. But will they take the leap?
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Prompt 14: "My muse, believe me, waiting for you has been a form of freedom."
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Excerpt: 

"Don't look back." Ian stares at me through the screen with his dark, intense gaze. "Don't long for all the things that might have been. Don't chastise yourself for the decisions you've made."

For a moment, his words render me silent.

"Appreciate all those little indentations that make you who you are," he says with a tender expression. "And remember your superpower."

"What superpower?"

"Let yourself dream again." A tender smile crosses his features. "Focus that intense drive of yours on the future like you used to do."

He's right. For so long, I've been living in survival mode. One foot in front of the other. Stuck in this nightmare, I haven't been able to see any other way forward. Until now.

"You're free now," he says, "to make better choices that will make you truly happy." 

For a moment, I let my mind take me wherever it wants to go. Right now? It wants to be in Boston, beside him. But can I leave everything behind?All Rights Reserved

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