empty ~ kurotsuki

"the secret is to just be empty."

his reflection looms over him as if it were a giant wave waiting to devour him. he feels the noose of his subconscious grow tighter, suffocating him with the voices of dysmorphia. as it tightens, his control begins to slip.
"you can trust me...they don't know what you need...this is what will satisfy you."

in his mind, he is healthy and this is normal to want to be thin. he has to be the spitting image of a national-playing athlete. he has to be for his boyfriend; who would want to date someone this ugly? he has to be for his family; he can't fail their expectations. this is normal.

kei is stubborn. too stubborn for his own good.
"you're beautiful."
lair.
"you're perfect just the way you are."
shut up.
"i love you."
why?

it may be too late for kei to realize that he is no longer himself. he is nothing but a hollow shell living in foreign skin. inside, he is empty.

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this story is inspired by jaidenanimations and BoyInABand's song "Empty". i do not own the song, nor do i take any credit for the lyrics.

i do not own haikyuu or any of the characters. these characters belong to Haruichi Furudate.

this story covers mature topics that may be triggering to some individuals. viewer discretion is advised.

lowercase intended.