I Want To Be Okay

I struggle with ALOT of mental issues and this is just meant to be a way to vent, or get thoughts down; assume many TW honestly just don't read it if you sesntiive to anything in anyway because my own thoughts don't make sense to me alot, it most likely won't be in any specific order because my thoughts arent; they mostly jump all over the place it sometimes just might even be random quotes, words or thoughts or randomly turn into vents about truamas. do not read if you have suicidal thoughts or whatever either, this will not help.
I will also add i might refer to things weirdly at times since I do not feel real most of the time and am in an almost constant state of dissacoiation. Also if you ant me to talk more on certain topics or want to just ask me questions feel free to ill probabaly answer/add it into the story it would actually helo me with getting it our since im bad at just bringing things up.