The deep thoughts inside my borderline mind
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Last published Mon, Feb 5, 2024
My name is Emily and I suffer from borderline personality disorder amongst other disorders.
I want to share my deepest darkest thoughts, my veiw in life, and some aspects of my life and journey with borderline.
I hope this might help some people see that they are not alone, and that it is okay to come out and share your thoughts and feelings.
You are always welcome to dm me or ask questions in the comments.
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