How to love ?!

Chapter 1 Cry

Growing up without a daddy was really hard for me. I wanted to feel the love that all the other girls felt I wanted the daddy daughter bond so bad but things wasn't the same. 15 years old n I'm stuck in this world lost. My mama is a hard working woman with 4 kids i could tell she wasn't ok but she tried to hide the pain but being the oldest u notice everything. One morning before school I notice that my mama wasn't actin right she kept hiding her face she didn't even make breakfast this morning. she alway makes us breakfast. She told us to fix some cereals and to hurry outside to wait on the bus. While my brothers were eating I snuck into my mother room I open the door and she was sittin on the side of the bed crying. She kept telling me to shut the door n go eat my cereal I couldn't leave her. My daddy was sitting on the other side of the bed with a tray in his hand. Look like he was shooting up some liquid stuff. I couldn't watch it no more. My mama look at me and all I could see was ?!