Their untold secrets
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Last published Tue, Apr 1, 2025
We write letters to ourselves as a way of comfort and closure. They both have many untold secrets... the feelings, they wish they could convey to each other, and the secrets they wish they could keep hidden.
Will it come to the light or stay in the dark?
A book about Dazai's day, life, and innermost thoughts.
Asking himself the unsaid questions, the questions he doesn't know how to answer himself.
The emotions he wishes to feel, but doubts he ever could.
Chuuya? How did the brunettes departure affect him?
How did he learn to cope? And who did he blame?
{There will be journal entries in this book. Both dazai and Chuuya's feelings and perspectives out on paper}
(this story contains angst, and the normal dazai stuff like talks about suicide, attempts, substance abuse, boyxboy, Soukoku, self harm. There will have several journal entries, but also have an actual story to go along with it.)
/01-21-25/ #33 dazaiosamu
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/06-09-25/ #48 Soukokuangst
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