Samuel's lament

{ Disclaimer ⚠️ Topics about running away, Child abuse, child neglect, eating disorders. } The main thing I want to talk about to anyone who ether got recommended this on your homepage here or just happen to stumbled upon this, than I'll have to say this, this is my first attempt at posting a story online or writing attempting to post it online. So it might not be as good as other stories you read on here or get recommended here. So just give me some feedback on the first few chapters to make it better in the grammar and spelling, so I can see the suggestions to help me improve on my writing skills. Okay so back to this shit :

Samuel felt that one day he'll soon die out like how his fellow sunflowers would be bent and broken over in the fields near the public park that was just down the road from where he lived, the sunflowers were like him, he thrived in the sunlight when the sun was basically kissing and embracing him as one of their one, he would be accepted by the light and the warmth that he was deprived from it from all his life, now he wonders if he'll soon start to witter away as his petal's haven't even taken a chance to form into the flower that he was made into, by the ones that took more time to take care of other people and flowers than the small dried out sapling that he was. He wondered if his petal's would soon become dry and fall off of the steam as the sun would return to its next destination on this earth where other flowers like him needed and ache the sun's warmth, light and embrace as much he wanted as he could only watch the sun go down as the sky, once its cloudy yet grayish color rise as it transformed into a beautiful orange and pink hue as if the sky was falling apart and mending once more.

Only catching a glimpse at him in distress in their sun going down, only to try and comfort the young flower and console them as they decide to put up something's as bright, yet warm embrace to the young flower, whispering reinsurance to