i feel safe.
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Last published Wed, May 21, 2025
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trigger warnings: talk of self harm, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, drug abuse/overdose, alcoholism, abuse, rape/sexual assault, and possibly more. read with caution.
started 2/15/24
welcome to my first ever story! please please read the trigger warnings and take them into account. if you are not in the right state of mind dont read! constructive criticism is always appreciated.
this story is based around me and my past.
ps: i write on an iphone, i don't know how this is gonna turn out, i have no previous experience on writing books, but i thought i'd give it a shot.
i love you guys!! take care of yourselves, im always here if you need anything. dont be afraid to reach out!
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