i feel safe. - kya 🫀 - Wattpad

i feel safe.

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"i feel safe with you billie." i say.

lowercase intended. billie is not famous (yet), billie has her blue hair in this but it's not based off of her when she had it. 

trigger warnings: talk of self harm, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, drug abuse/overdose, alcoholism, abuse, eating disorder, rape/sexual assault, and possibly more. read with caution.

started 2/15/24 

welcome to my first ever story! please please read the trigger warnings and take them into account. if you are not in the right state of mind dont read! constructive criticism is always appreciated. -kya.

this story is based around me and my past.

ps: i write on an iphone, i don't know how this is gonna turn out, i have no previous experience on writing books, but i thought i'd give it a shot.All Rights Reserved

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𝐼𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝑜𝓃 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈. {𝐵.𝐸} by Legosunderthestairs

ᴀʟʟɪꜱᴏɴ'ꜱ ʟɪꜰᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛᴜʀɴᴇᴅ ᴜᴘꜱɪᴅᴇ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴡʜᴇɴ ꜱʜᴇ ɪꜱ ᴋɪᴄᴋᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ʙʏ ʜᴇʀ ᴀʙᴜꜱɪᴠᴇ ᴍᴏᴍ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪꜱ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ꜱʜᴇ ʙᴜᴍᴘꜱ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴀɴ ᴏʟᴅ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴀᴛ ᴀ ᴘᴀʀᴛʏ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴀꜱ ᴀʟʟɪꜱᴏɴ ᴛʜɪɴᴋꜱ ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏᴏᴅꜱ..ʜᴇʀ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇꜱ ᴀ ᴛᴜʀɴ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀꜱᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴀʏ. #¹ ⁻ᵇⁱˡˡⁱᵉᵉⁱˡⁱˢʰ ?! #¹⁵ ⁻ˢᵃᵈʳᵒᵐᵃⁿᶜᵉ #⁸ ⁻ˢᵘⁱᶜⁱᵈᵉᵖʳᵉᵛᵉⁿᵗⁱᵒⁿ

Broken Promise////Billie Eilish by chocolatey_love

"But you said! you told me you love me!" I yelled at her tears streaming down my face. She looks at me and shrugs smiling, "I didn't mean it. I was just playing around. Wanted to know what it was like. And you know I love him." "You wrote it! 'If I love you was a promise would you break it if your honest' it was a promise! you can't break a promise!" I sob out clenching the end of my shirt tightly. "How old are you? Fucking 10? Promises are made to be broken. At least I'm being true to staying honest. Wake up y/n, this is reality. I'm not even gay! I was just curious." She says rolling her eyes. "So you chose me to play with? To hurt? You think my feelings aren't valid just because I'm a lesbian? So you play with my feelings! You're just a selfish bitch! I fucking hate you Billie!" I yell unable to control my emotions anymore. "Okay? Well if that was it, I'm leaving. Brandon's waiting for me in the car." She says with a laugh. I look up to met her ocean eyes filled with amusement and accomplishment. I look at her with disgust and walk away. Away from her, hopefully forever.

Ilomilo [}Billie Eilish{] by nearlydaily

Book 1 °Eyelash° Book 2 °Ninety Days° Book 3 °ilomilo° Book 4 °COPYCAT° Book 5 °Her Future° I played with the ring on my finger getting distracted, it still felt odd not having anything on my pinky anymore. ---- Separate Billie series •Blonde• 18+

𝙍𝙀𝘿 // 𝘽𝙄𝙇𝙇𝙄𝙀 𝙀𝙄𝙇𝙄𝙎𝙃 𝙁𝘼𝙉𝙁𝙄𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉 by bellyxbilz

WARNING: book contains many sensitive topics, please click off if you think it might not be suitable for you and take care. - death used to scare me a lot actually, but i'm not scared of it anymore. in fact getting my eyelashes pulled out by my eyelash curler scares me more, but guess what? - created a pinterest board for the book to familiarize the vibe (there maybe some foreshadowing in there or you may consider minor spoilers) - @bellyxbilz 🏅 ACHIEVEMENTS : 🏅 #1 billie 🏅 #1 billieeilish 🏅 #1 eilish 🏅 #1 hairsalon 🏅 #1 dyedhair 🏅 #1 blohsh 🏅 #1 electricguitar 🏅 #1 dontsmileatme 🏅 #1 billieoconnell 🏅 #1 ilomilo 🏅 #1 tour 🏅 #1 claudia 🏅 #1 finneas 🏅 #1 oconnell 🏅 #1 happierthanever 🏅 #3 band

𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 | 𝑩.𝑬 by bils_lil_ilomilo

~𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒚? 𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒎 𝒊? 𝒐𝒉 𝒊𝒕 𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒏𝒊𝒄𝒆, 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒕𝒘𝒊𝒄𝒆~ - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - It's been almost 2 and a half years since Lynx last saw Billie. Lily hasn't responded to any of the millions of phone calls, texts, or desperate DMs from her ex and would like to keep it that way. But it's hard to ignore someone when you bump into them in real life. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒕𝒐𝒐 '𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 | 𝑩.𝑬'

$CLOUDY \\\ B.E. imagines by thestormycloud$

BILLIE EILISH IMAGINES \\\ pretty good if i do say so myself :) requests accepted. hope people read it- if not i will anyways 😋 gxg

What a tragedy // Billie Joe Armstrong by PrivateAIe

"I write best when I'm falling in love, or falling apart." He muttered to himself, his gaze was on the guitar he had gently settled into his lap as he traced over the initials 'BJ' on it with his index finger. "Which one is it right now?" I asked nervously. He looked up at me with his green eyes only for a split second, soon looking back down. Like he feared I would see the pain painted behind his jade green orbs. But if he already knew I had already saw it. "Both." He said, finally looking up at me. That's when I noticed the pool of tears for everything that he had left unspoken, with one blink they would be running down his cheeks. And I hope he didn't let them, because I couldn't see him cry. "I love you, and it's killing me." I bit my lip painfully trying to stop myself from crying. He was the right one, my heart told me when my eyes first landed on him. But he wasn't mine, and that tore me up. Because I craved him to be. I sighed, "you're breaking my heart billie." I whispered, watching the tears roll down his dull face. "I love you. And loving you feels like some sort of self destruction when I'm not suppose to but my god armstrong I love you." I sobbed. It seems to be that love could be labelled poison and we would drink it anyways. I looked at him, the sadness in his eyes felt like it was tearing me up from the inside starting with the heart. But I felt guilty to look away. "But you know we shouldn't." I said Painfully, he nodded biting his lip. "We should only be friends." "But friends don't look at each other the way we do." And I needed him, he was my life line. And he told me he needed me, he said I was his sanity. But although it felt we lived worlds against each other, one thing we both knew was. 'I'm fine.' Sounds the same. Even when it's not true ----------------- She loved him more than he would ever know. And he loved her more than he would ever show. What a tragedy. (Little spoiler, but it does end happily I promise.)

Approaching Her - Billie Eilish by purewing

- "Oh, just shut up and smash your lips into mines, kinda like the bruised feeling you're leaving on them." She says placing her thumb on my lower lip, while touching my upper lip with her green, long nail. - "Aren't they already full of unconventional states of mind?" I ask tilting my head one sided, softly caressing her arm with my fingers, just one followed by the other one. Teasing the Hell out of her is my passion mixed up with the ungodly pleasure she uses to give me. Such an addictive type of love. Christine, a bartender moving out to Highland-park, learns about Billies existence. They get off on the wrong foot from the first beginning not for more but Billie's tendency of expressing her rough emotions through loud music at 3 am, causing Chris headaches. They learn how easygoing life can be after they taste each other's dreams, state of minds, experiences and bodies. It turns out Billie is hiding something from Christine. Billie - g!p girlxgirl Contains sexual/smut content along with suicide mentions Read @ your own risk. start: 11.02.2021 #3 in billie - 24.02.2021 #2 in billieeilish - 26.02.2021 #12 in lgbt - 11.04.2022 #28 in girl - 28.02.2021 #20 in gxg - 11.04.2022 cover: @me

Breathing you |b.e by mamamilkers333

I was an addict but I never thought I would get addicted to you, but as soon as our eyes meet I was stuck, blinded by your beauty. I knew life would end with you. Trigger warnings Drug-, alcohol abuse, overdose, suic!de, self harm, body image

ADDICTION // B.E by billieachess

"why do you vape? it's bad for you. you know that, right?" she asked quietly after a moment. "i know it is, but i can't stop now. it's an addiction." i shrugged, fidgeting with my novo. "why can't i be your new addiction?" she whispered, looking at me pleadingly. "that can be arranged." ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 5/1/2020 ended: 11/2/2020 ============================== achieved: ? #1 in #dontsmileatme 7/25/2020 ? #1 in #billieeilish 10/4/2020 ? #3 in #lgbtq 9/21/2020 ? #1 in #billie 9/27/2020 ? #1 in #claudia 10/17/2020 ? #17 in #lgbtpride 11/2/2020

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𝐼𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝑜𝓃 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈. {𝐵.𝐸} cover

Broken Promise////Billie Eilish cover

Ilomilo [}Billie Eilish{] cover

𝙍𝙀𝘿 // 𝘽𝙄𝙇𝙇𝙄𝙀 𝙀𝙄𝙇𝙄𝙎𝙃 𝙁𝘼𝙉𝙁𝙄𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉 cover

𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 | 𝑩.𝑬 cover

$CLOUDY \\\ B.E. imagines cover$

What a tragedy // Billie Joe Armstrong cover

Approaching Her - Billie Eilish cover

Breathing you |b.e cover

ADDICTION // B.E cover

𝐼𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝑜𝓃 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈. {𝐵.𝐸}

ᴀʟʟɪꜱᴏɴ'ꜱ ʟɪꜰᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛᴜʀɴᴇᴅ ᴜᴘꜱɪᴅᴇ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴡʜᴇɴ ꜱʜᴇ ɪꜱ ᴋɪᴄᴋᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ʙʏ ʜᴇʀ ᴀʙᴜꜱɪᴠᴇ ᴍᴏᴍ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪꜱ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ꜱʜᴇ ʙᴜᴍᴘꜱ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴀɴ ᴏʟᴅ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴀᴛ ᴀ ᴘᴀʀᴛʏ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴀꜱ ᴀʟʟɪꜱᴏɴ ᴛʜɪɴᴋꜱ ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏᴏᴅꜱ..ʜᴇʀ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇꜱ ᴀ ᴛᴜʀɴ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀꜱᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴀʏ. #¹ ⁻ᵇⁱˡˡⁱᵉᵉⁱˡⁱˢʰ ?! #¹⁵ ⁻ˢᵃᵈʳᵒᵐᵃⁿᶜᵉ #⁸ ⁻ˢᵘⁱᶜⁱᵈᵉᵖʳᵉᵛᵉⁿᵗⁱᵒⁿ