i feel safe. - kya 🫀 - Wattpad

i feel safe.

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Parts 12
Time 59m

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"i feel safe with you billie." i say.

lowercase intended. billie is not famous (yet), billie has her blue hair in this but it's not based off of her when she had it. 

trigger warnings: talk of self harm, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, drug abuse/overdose, alcoholism, abuse, eating disorder, rape/sexual assault, and possibly more. read with caution.

started 2/15/24 

welcome to my first ever story! please please read the trigger warnings and take them into account. if you are not in the right state of mind dont read! constructive criticism is always appreciated. -kya.

this story is based around me and my past.

ps: i write on an iphone, i don't know how this is gonna turn out, i have no previous experience on writing books, but i thought i'd give it a shot.All Rights Reserved

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Billie Eilish x Reader (AU) This is a shooorrtttttt story. Only a handful of chapters because i don't want it to be that long. summary: The reader, Y/N, runs into her ex from a few years ago. Due to some complications and the previous relationship being toxic and overall abusive, they ended it. But, with Billie insisting she changed and with everything she does and the hobbies she has now proving that, will Y/N decide to allow Billie back into her heart? Can she trust Billie again? Or will Billie just turn back into her selfish, arrogant, toxic self again? Can you accept Billie's flaws and apologies?

depressed | emily prentiss x reader by emilvprentiss

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gym class - billie eilish by jaylovesbil

lowercase intended. in this story billie has a dick. the story has mature mental (and physical) health themes. it does have trigger warnings, but still be cautious. i started writing this in my smut book so the smut comes early on. also i apologize in advance if there are mistakes because: 1. english isn't my first language. 2. all chapters are published unchecked. achieved: #1 in eilish - march 29th 2023. #1 in ynstories - april 13rd 2023. #1 in billieeilishpiratebairdoconnell - august 22nd 2023. #1 in gp - December 16th 2024.

𝙍𝙀𝘿 // 𝘽𝙄𝙇𝙇𝙄𝙀 𝙀𝙄𝙇𝙄𝙎𝙃 𝙁𝘼𝙉𝙁𝙄𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉 by bellyxbilz

WARNING: book contains many sensitive topics - death used to scare me a lot actually, but i'm not scared of it anymore. in fact getting my eyelashes pulled out by my eyelash curler scares me more, but guess what? - created a pinterest board for the book to familiarize the vibe (there maybe some foreshadowing in there or you may consider minor spoilers) - @bellyxbilz 🏅 ACHIEVEMENTS : 🏅 #1 billie 🏅 #1 billieeilish 🏅 #1 eilish 🏅 #1 hairsalon 🏅 #1 dyedhair 🏅 #1 blohsh 🏅 #1 electricguitar 🏅 #1 dontsmileatme 🏅 #1 billieoconnell 🏅 #1 ilomilo 🏅 #1 tour 🏅 #1 claudia 🏅 #1 finneas 🏅 #1 oconnell 🏅 #1 happierthanever 🏅 #3 band

Broken Promise////Billie Eilish by chocolatey_love

"But you said! you told me you love me!" I yelled at her tears streaming down my face. She looks at me and shrugs smiling, "I didn't mean it. I was just playing around. Wanted to know what it was like. And you know I love him." "You wrote it! 'If I love you was a promise would you break it if your honest' it was a promise! you can't break a promise!" I sob out clenching the end of my shirt tightly. "How old are you? Fucking 10? Promises are made to be broken. At least I'm being true to staying honest. Wake up y/n, this is reality. I'm not even gay! I was just curious." She says rolling her eyes. "So you chose me to play with? To hurt? You think my feelings aren't valid just because I'm a lesbian? So you play with my feelings! You're just a selfish bitch! I fucking hate you Billie!" I yell unable to control my emotions anymore. "Okay? Well if that was it, I'm leaving. Brandon's waiting for me in the car." She says with a laugh. I look up to met her ocean eyes filled with amusement and accomplishment. I look at her with disgust and walk away. Away from her, hopefully forever.

ADDICTION // B.E by billieachess

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unidentified | billie eilish fanfiction by bellyxbilz

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What a tragedy // Billie Joe Armstrong by PrivateAIe

"I write best when I'm falling in love, or falling apart." He muttered to himself, his gaze was on the guitar he had gently settled into his lap as he traced over the initials 'BJ' on it with his index finger. "Which one is it right now?" I asked nervously. He looked up at me with his green eyes only for a split second, soon looking back down. Like he feared I would see the pain painted behind his jade green orbs. But if he already knew I had already saw it. "Both." He said, finally looking up at me. That's when I noticed the pool of tears for everything that he had left unspoken, with one blink they would be running down his cheeks. And I hope he didn't let them, because I couldn't see him cry. "I love you, and it's killing me." I bit my lip painfully trying to stop myself from crying. He was the right one, my heart told me when my eyes first landed on him. But he wasn't mine, and that tore me up. Because I craved him to be. I sighed, "you're breaking my heart billie." I whispered, watching the tears roll down his dull face. "I love you. And loving you feels like some sort of self destruction when I'm not suppose to but my god armstrong I love you." I sobbed. It seems to be that love could be labelled poison and we would drink it anyways. I looked at him, the sadness in his eyes felt like it was tearing me up from the inside starting with the heart. But I felt guilty to look away. "But you know we shouldn't." I said Painfully, he nodded biting his lip. "We should only be friends." "But friends don't look at each other the way we do." And I needed him, he was my life line. And he told me he needed me, he said I was his sanity. But although it felt we lived worlds against each other, one thing we both knew was. 'I'm fine.' Sounds the same. Even when it's not true ----------------- She loved him more than he would ever know. And he loved her more than he would ever show. What a tragedy. (Little spoiler, but it does end happily I promise.)

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