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Drowning in it

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Reads 44
Votes 3
Parts 3
Time 16m

TW:MATURE CONTENT

      
"I know how melancholy I sound and how drinking at 5 am was so unbelievably unhealthy but it was how I kept myself alive."


Each "chapter" will have 5 "pages/parts" numbered below 

This story is told from 2 perspectives of how Stella and her mystery boy meet but in the process, she goes through drug abuse and alcoholism drowning in the pressure society has put on her for not being feminine enough. 




Ive incorporated a lot of how my life was a year and half ago into hers especially with drinking and drug use but if im explaining things wrong from how you see it let me know so i can get everything correctly.
   This is my first story and I'm just posting "chapter" one for now but i have 20 more chapters writing, id love feedback please!!COMMENT AND VOTE!!! And definitely some tips too :))All Rights Reserved

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