Love, a powerful force that binds two souls, came crashing down on me like a tidal wave. It was no longer just a feeling, but a verb, a doing word that demanded action. In the wake of this heartbreaking revelation, two lives, built on dreams, hopes, and expectations, were torn apart, leaving me shattered beyond words. The pain still echoes through my veins, even to this day. 💘💝
For the first time, I found myself in a tumultuous internal battle between my heart and mind, questioning what is right and wrong. My faith and values weren't something I was willing to compromise on, and his revelation had thrown everything I knew into disarray. I was lost, drowning in my own mess of emotions. 🥀
But even today, as time has passed, the treacherous beatings of my heart refuse to align with the lingering anger and disappointment that plague my weary mind. It seems that my heart has a way of disregarding all notions of hate and anger, steadfastly choosing love instead. Oh, the heart ♥️, an ever-faithful companion, persisting in its devotion even when it seems impossible to comprehend.
Thus, my tale unfolds, interlaced with empathy, as if spun by the hand of an empathetic storyteller. It is a journey of healing and reassessment, a quest to make peace with the complexities of love and forgiveness. And as I traverse this path, I do so with the understanding that true love, even when shattered and scarred, has the power to inspire compassion and protect the memories of a love once cherished.💌💖
I needed help, a guiding light to lead me out of the darkness.🌻🌈🌠
Come and join me on the journey of Charis & Mizo thee Gemini & Pisces romantic pair whose stories are forever with me,etched on my being.
***All images are for illustrations only; some are googled images but most are generated via an app by myself***
My life has been an intense journey from a little girl who was beaten down and abused into believing that she was worthless, to a woman at 43 years of age who is still desperately searching for who she truly is. I found her though. I did. And she writes like me, from inside of me. She is me. This girl that I've been in love with since time first existed, is indeed me. The way that she walks. With her hands... and how she talks? The hearts that she's captured, the souls that she has inspired. I'm now trying to be her. I've never felt that I was good enough to actually be myself!!! I always knew how pure and clear and free I was inside. But people told me otherwise, in a very cruel way. No one ever spared my feelings or thought to speak to me with kindness or love. My parents were very serious and strict people. They believed that there was only 1 way to act and inside I knew that I did NOT fit in the parameters of the behavior expected of me. And every single time I made my Step Daddy sigh or frown it felt like I knife in my heart. I was a let down. Always too loud. Always moving too much. Always too fat and always too ugly. Always too much. Unless I sat quietly. But I've always been a firecracker and all of that containment really made me want to blow off! All of what was inside of me, swirling and dividing in me. Burying the side of me that I loved the most! I was a bastard and a blasphemy. Harsh words for a girl of 3. They said them when they baptized me.