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The meaning of Z

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Reads 25
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angstwithhappyending bxblove findingyourself lgbtfiction romance soccer teenfiction teenrage teenromance youngadult

It can be tricky to find the meaning of yourself, when it's been thought of for you since you were young. 
For zed that's all he ever known, having his path wrote for him. To be a soccer player like his brother...but as he ages he noticed how unhappy he is. He doesn't even recognize himself from that happy 8 year old he was. Maybe he doesn't want his path picked by his parents? 
But he can't change that. 
Then he met Jonah and rethinks everything he ever thought he knew.

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Warnings: mentions of depression, anxiety and abuse.
LGBTQ story.All Rights Reserved

angstwithhappyending bxblove findingyourself lgbtfiction romance soccer teenfiction teenrage teenromance youngadult

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We Go On

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