Fallen heart, let me fade, osamu dazai

Fallen Heart let me Fade, "I do not know what precisely occurred that day, it just occurred so fast that I do not even consider what came about precisely, I should most effective see how step by step we stopped being close, it harm, I felt it even in my heart, it changed into like a knife was caught in me. the heart was drowning in tears, crying and screaming turned into what came out of my mouth, I had lost you. I could not save you, that's what hurts the most, I could not save you before the sort of element came about to you, forgive me, my love, for now not being able to save your existence. If before I tried to dedicate suicide pretty frequently, now I want to do it right now, i am sure I might not fail once more, it might not show up, we are going to die together. For eternity"

─── dazai osamu x fem.reader

translation from my spanish-written oneshot.