It's easier to watch than be watched. At least that's what I always believed, but now, I don't really mind being watched by that pair of blue, green eyes. If it's him, it's easier to watch and be watched, if it's him it's easier to reach and have him within reach, if it's him it's easier to look and find him, if it's him it's ok to love and be loved back by him.
Machiala has lost people in her life, she never has been able to make friends easy and she has extreme social anxiety. Since the loss of her mom, she has tried to navigate through Highschool and survive without giving up and become a failure to those she cares about. Highschool is hard but if it's with him it might now be just as hard.