Adieu, Lumière

I have cancer. I am dying. I have to day good bye to everyone I have ever loved, and who had ever loved me.

Most of the stories you read tell of how someone is trying to figure out why them. Why they are dying? And they start with the conclusion that they did something to deserve it. And on their pilgrimage, they realize they don't deserve it, that it's okay to die, and that there is someone out there watc b ing over them.

I read all these books, so I decided to save myself some precious time and start with that conclusion and save myself the pilgrimage. But as it turns out, something like cancer forces you to find something within yourself. I started with hope, and this is the story of thr journey of how I lost that hope.

This is the story of how I said goodbye to the light.