I'm sorry. I give up

''I have no need for revenge. I am no longer yours and that is punishment enough Steven.''
-Amy

If before whenever she called me by my name I was happy and feel loved but now, for the first time after she mentioned my name, my heart hurts so much and I deserved it. if before every time she mentions my name I can see butterflies on her eyes. but now, all I see is pain and anger and it's killing me because there's no love anymore.

I'm just a man of words. I know it will hurt her feelings but I did it and still do it even she already tell me its hurting her. I know that Amy loves me so much that's why I become so comfortable. I though she will never leave me because she loves me so much more than she love herself that's why I abused her love until, until she doesn't love me anymore.

''I love you Amy'' I said almost in a whisper. I can feel my tears are ready to fall down

''I'm sorry, I give up''

She pronounce that words like she's a different person. This woman is done. This woman is already gone. I can see it. I can feel it. That she's done with me. I fckn deserve it.