My Safe Place
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"A colorful canvas of pain and despair"
"Every step forward is a battle against invisible force"
I'd like to begin my dose. Being a sad writer with a hopeless cute quote
You might be wondering what is it about?
Maybe it's about a glimmer of hope that refuses to get bigger .
Or a body enveloped in a combination of pain and despair .
Where memories are hunting me no matter how hard I run.
With every pill of anguish consumes me
Sometimes it's torturing me
But grief is totally killing me.
My heart is beating so fast.
With each beat , pain inhabits me .
That pain inside breaks my heart into slices .
Going back to those nights that remain scars in my life .
Walking hand in hand with pain and regret.
the shadow of pain has been following me . Where despair is around burning every inch of my joy .
Beneath desolate nights and cold ones.
In the labyrinth of my existence , pain intertwines with despair . I've been thinking about it several times.
The thought of ending up that sorrow inside .
Never thought of ending up my life for real
I just want to stop the ceaseless torment that ravages my body and my soul.
They know you're suffering, but they don't understand the agony of being chosen by an undesired fate .
They don't see the emptiness, the numbness that I'm drowning in.
Too exhausted to speak, too drained to shed tears, too weak even too look forward .
Each word in these echoes , each heavy feeling i felt are a cacophony of affliction.
Feelings trapped by pain and despair where there is no escape from them. Ending up with melancholic quote "All the risk and no gain".
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