Losing myself
ayesha10
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ayesha10
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This is my story, nobody else's. When I say it's 'my' story, I don't mean 'my' story that I came up with, but my actual story, my life so far. Yes I know, it's a early start, and that I haven't lived for even a quarter of my life, but I just wanted a place to let it all out. To speak the words I never did, to open up, something I've never actually done before. So bare with me, I new at this, new at letting someone know about my life, new to the world, and this is only just the start of it... 

I love you guys.
Please don't judge me,
and I won't judge you.
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