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Everything I'm not // Billie Eilish

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Parts 11
Time 48m

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"I'm always here for you." Billie says, her voice soft. 
A smile creeps on my face. "I'm always here for you too." I reply. 

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"Where were you when I needed you?" I ask. My chest tightens and tears fill my eyes. 
"I don't know. Where were you?" Billie replies. Her voice is colder. 

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Deloris seems like a normal girl. It's a bit shy, sure, but nothing bad. 
Nothing was bad until everything fell down a year ago. 
Everything seems fine, but nothing is fine.All Rights Reserved

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