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My Heart Beats NOT For You

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The last thing Cassian could remember was pain-the pain of being shot through the heart-the pain of drowning miserably alone in a dark ocean. His death, or so he thought.
	So why then does he now find himself in a new body with the same pain he felt in death? And why doesn't his heart beat? And, is that blood?



"When we said kin iron man this isn't what we meant"All Rights Reserved

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{completed} ❝You've heard him scream before. Hurt or scared didn't matter, his screams always sounded the same. But this time, they're worse. They're full of grief.❞ For years, you've been working for Hydra, constructing weapons, inventing new ones, fixing older ones. You're their mechanic. You're the best. But your mind is numbed. You don't think. You don't imagine. You don't dream. You just obey. Until they bring you a wounded soldier in need of an arm. [a winter soldier x fem!reader fanfiction, NO SMUT, no use of y/n] [can be read in a platonic or romantic way] [𝐓𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠: graphic descriptions of violence, including torture] [word count: 12.000-13.000, 800+ per chapter] [only posted on wattpad and ao3, ©planetaryfire]

Limbo by Nakayama_Aiko

It's amazing how one second, it feels like everything is perfect. Like he's reached heaven on earth. And then in the next second, that heaven can be shattered. Living in a world that keeps turning while he's trying to recover feels like he's trapped in limbo. And there's no escape. Or Lee Know and his manager get into a car crash. He thinks that all his injuries are external and will heal quickly. What he doesn't realize is that the thing that was hurt the most was inside and recovering from a traumatic situation takes a lot longer. Or, ya know, concussions, injuries, and PTSD. Name from: Limbo by Lee Know Chapter titles from: Cars Outside by James Arthur

Alone At Last (UNEDITED) by Random_Art329

PLEASE READ DESCRIPTION! Everyone likes being alone once an a while. That feeling of peace and all your problems drifting into space melting away, 16 year old Luke soon learns that being alone is not always a pleasant feeling. When he wishes to be left alone upon a wishing well he soon discovers being alone isn't such a nice feeling. As Lukes mind slips away from reality he's losing sanity. How much longer can he take this madness?? Is he doomed too forever be this way? Take a journey with Luke as you read the story "Alone At Last" as he struggles to survive. PREVIEW INTO BOOK: ... When I shut the door behind me I realized that no cars were driving out here either. They were all empty and abandoned. As I strolled by there were no people talking in the coffee shop windows. There were no people eating in restaurants. There were no sounds except my heavy breathing and the howling wind. "HELLOOOOOOOO" I shouted, "IS ANYONE HEREEEEE HELLOOOOO!!?" I continued to call out to no one in particular feeling a little agitated by the growing silence. That's when I heard it... The winds howling came to a stop. The world seemed to stop turning. Time itself came to a halt. Leaves caught in the breeze and remained motionless. That was until the wind came calling back to me, and in this it whispered one word that answered all my questions... Alone- ---------------~~~~~ Thank you for choosing to read my story I hope you like and enjoy it!!! Please note: I am not a professional writer and I am terrible at spelling so don't judge!!!! THIS IS THE UNEDITED VERSION! THE EDITED VERSION WILL BE POSTED SOON! WARNINGS: NOTE: BOOK INCLUDES: 1.) SWEARING - & HATEFUL WORDS 2.) BULLYING - 3.) SUICIDE & MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH (also incudes thoughts and mentions of it)- 4.) BLOOD & GORE (lightly graphic)- 5.) ABUSE- 6.) And other things like that Don't say I didn't warn you!!! DONT FORGET TO VOTE !!! <3

Only The Gentle Surived by galaxies_universes

When Cassian gets kicked out of his house for being transgender, he's kind of lost. Scratch that, definitely lost, and definitely struggling. His only living family member is his mother's distant cousin, who Cassian doesn't know much about. He knows the man was shunned from the family for being gay, and that he has a tattoo shop in town. But that's enough to get Cassian to go to him for help. Which ends up kind of being the best choice he's ever made, and kind of saves his life. [Written for the gen 3 contest]

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How It Ends【Vylad X Reader】[ Completed ] by Mariko_Akiyama

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