Heartbreak , loneliness and this feeling of worthlessness so many complex emotions, along with a range of questions , the urge to shout , the plea to cry but who is there to listen - no one. Five husbands yet not even one is there is to hold me, to take my pain , my sorrow. I found myself alone in dark making my drained self completely empty form within, erasing all ounces of emotions from me if it was still present. This is not the time to mourn over your ruptured respect krishnaa it is time to protect whatever is left.. I can not let people walk over me again , I will not give my husbands another chance to hurt me again just to expect that every thing will be all right in due course of time . This is it I will end this suffering right now with this thoughts in mind I krishnaa draupadi took the most drastic decision of my life and i finally did what I should have done long time ago.