The Darker Materials

A small fanfiction of VegasPete I hope everyone will like it...🔞

Kinn ❤️ Porsche love story ????????????......

every day I'm left at a loss for words. ✘CW: mentions of suicide and self-harm © 2017-2023 alexxiajay, all rights reserved *i wrote this collection in 2017, i have only updated it recently. (fixed some grammatical errors, and changed a few things, but otherwise, i've tried to leave it true to form) *all images are from google, i do not own any of them

- Not completed-Do you ever just sit in your room at night and think about everything? Why you were born, what’s the point of living? Are you even needed in this cruel world? Do you ever just think, would anyone even miss me if I’m gone? These thoughts run through my mind pretty much every night. I lie in bed, staring at my ceiling with tears rolling down my cheeks. Normally along with several fresh marks embedded into my stomach and skin. Nobody would ever know though, why would they? It’s not like my family are remotely interested in me or anybody for that manner. Well, I use the term ‘family’ extremely loosely. My ‘family’ basically consists of me living with my uncle who doesn’t even register that I’m living in the same house as him. He basically uses me for the benefits so he can buy more cigarettes and spent more money on prostitutes. I use the term ‘house’ loosely also, I wouldn’t call it a house. I would call it a two bedroomed shack on the rough side of town

Macau :please do-don't do this it's hu-hurt Kinn : do you think I f**king care

Note: I wrote this without proof-reading it, and I was twelve. Please bear that in mind. Talking to you was surprisingly easy. Even though you won't reply to anything I say, I know you hear me. It's quite comforting actually. I had always loved talking to you, pouring out my thoughts, opinions, everything. Now that you’re gone, I have no idea what to do with myself anymore. It's just that I wish you didn't left me alone, Bailey. I blame myself for every single thing that you went through, if it wasn't for me, you would still be here. But no, I chose to be ignorant. I'm so sorry for that.

Quotes. Short stories. Things that make you think.

Kiara Athena Carpenter, 16, mentally ill and quite traumatized. The youngest of the Carpenter siblings and also the only girl which makes her the mafia princess. How can somebody be sad with all that money? Well... How is it to live with 5 brothers? Well... ------------ "Kie, please let me help you" he begged me again. "No I'm okay" I said glaring at him. "You're bleeding and you can barely breathe, just please let me help you" he begged. "There's two of you" I laughed. "Shit" I heard him mumble before everything went dark. ------------ TW: contains mature themes which will be mentioned before each chapter. !!ED, SH, SA and abuse mentioned!! Don't copy my book 😡 ENGLISH ISN'T MY FIRST LANGUAGE 🏆#1 in triggerwarning (May 6th 2023) 🏆#1 in 5brothers (May 27th 2023) 🏆#1 in deadparents (June 1st 2023) 🏆#1 in multilingual (November 28th 2023)