My thoughts and emotions
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I accidentally deleted this. So I cut myself I have been 3 hours clean. I've attempted suicide so many times. Um I am really struggling right now I've been crying non stop ever since Friday and I just wanna die. I'm going to let out my ish before I die. Yup I wanna die. That's it I guess...
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