The silence is deafening.

!TW! high descriptions and graphic detail of mental health, self-harm, suicide (attempts), trauma, eating disorders, anxiety, panick attacks, (child on child) sexual assault, mental and physical abuse and a lot of other things related, if you are not in a good mind space or this triggers you please don't continue reading! take care of yourself love <3

I'm describing thoughts and expiriences i had at certain ages so i can continue in my own personal healing process. i'm trying to shed some light into the fact that no matter the age of someone, if they have bad expieriences or thoughts its valid. NO. MATTER. THE. AGE. no i'm not asking for attention or anything i'm trying to fix myself. slowly but surely, ill get there someday.

please don't romantisize what i talk about in here. don't think you have to think and/or do what i did/do to be valid. if you think your not 'sick' enough, you are. i promise, its not a good place to be, trust me. i've been there a LOT, and yes i do sometimes stil struggle with that but its slowly getting better. no matter how 'bad' your expiriences and thoughts are they are extremely valid. you know if two people are drowning, it doesnt matter who is deeper because you are both drowning.

ED = eating disorder.
(COC) SA = child on child sexual assualt.
SH = self-harm.
MH = mental health.