What I Really Am
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MatureOngoing1h 19m
Last published Thu, Jun 11, 2015
this used to have an intro, but since i wrote it two years ago i deleted it
please don't hate me for abandoning it, i realized it was a shitty story imo :') but here i am finishing it for all of my loyal fans... ah yes
there's still good old sex and self harm in this because i can't change what i already wrote
plus it helps with the plot
so yeah
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