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What I Really Am

northrndwnpour_

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Reads 28,360
Votes 559
Parts 18
Time 1h 19m

northrndwnpour_

Mature

brendon disco fanfic fic panic patd ross ryan ryden rydon urie

this used to have an intro, but since i wrote it two years ago i deleted it
please don't hate me for abandoning it, i realized it was a shitty story imo :') but here i am finishing it for all of my loyal fans... ah yes

there's still good old sex and self harm in this because i can't change what i already wrote 
plus it helps with the plot
so yeahAll Rights Reserved

brendon disco fanfic fic panic patd ross ryan ryden rydon urie

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