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What I Really Am

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Reads 28,276
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Parts 18
Time 1h 19m

northrndwnpour_

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brendon disco fanfic fic panic patd ross ryan ryden rydon urie

this used to have an intro, but since i wrote it two years ago i deleted it
please don't hate me for abandoning it, i realized it was a shitty story imo :') but here i am finishing it for all of my loyal fans... ah yes

there's still good old sex and self harm in this because i can't change what i already wrote 
plus it helps with the plot
so yeahAll Rights Reserved

brendon disco fanfic fic panic patd ross ryan ryden rydon urie

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Casual Affair [Ryden] by MerthurIsMyOTP

It's been four years. Four fucking years since I saw George Ryan Ross for the last time. I still don't understand why he left us. Why he left me. I thought we shared a bond. Guess it wasn't mutual... But today I got called, and that call might have changed my life forever... Warnings: -Ryan is terribly fucked up in this story. He had an awful childhood and suffers from some mental problems. He's kinda depressed and stuff, so if you want a happy Ryan you have to find another fanfiction. -Sexual content. I don't put warnings in my chapters. -Boy x boy

House of Memories {Brendon Urie x Reader One Shots} by yellowfeverdean

~I WILL BE TAKING REQUESTS IN MY DM's, TELL ME IF YOU WANT IT TO BE ANONYMOUS OR NOT~ ~NOTHING SMUTTY BUT FLUFF IS ALLOWED~ ~I WILL COVER SENSITIVE TOPICS SOMETIMES~ ~SHE/HER PRONOUNS~ Just a ton of one shots containing the one and only Brendon Urie. Don't be afraid to DM me your ideas!

older ; ryden by stolenchords

ryro: i think i like you beebo: you shouldn't

Fight Your Demons (Brendon Urie X reader) [COMPLETED] by littlelfreaks

[first few chapters may be triggering] SEQUEL- BREAKING

Tour Whore by Roxy3685

Over 10 years ago you found yourself as one of the dancers on tour with Panic! At the Disco during Fever Era, Discovering Ryden Truths and sleeping with both Brendon and Ryan. Now Brendon has invited you back to dance on their latest tour. But Brendon's changed and comes off as arrogant like the fame has gone to his head and you start to wonder if coming back was the right choice, until you start taking interest in Brendon's friend Josh he's invited to join them on tour..... I know this doesn't sound smutty but trust me it gets Filthy.....

𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐆𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐒 by TheOG_

*DISCONTINUED* "Why do you do this?" "Because it takes the pain away." "No it doesn't. It just distracts you. Distracts you from what you're 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘺 hurting about inside." -------------------- This is a Ryan Ross x reader. Not everything in this is accurate! The reader in this story is female, I'm so sorry if these are not the pronouns you go by! ⚠Warnings⚠: swearing, mentions of self harm, abuse, and drinking and more. I will put a warning in front of any chapter that includes any sensitive material. 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚍: 6/14/20 𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚍: 𝚂𝙻𝙾𝚆 𝚄𝙿𝙳𝙰𝚃𝙴𝚂! 𝙘𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙗𝙮 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝘿𝙄𝙎𝘾𝙇𝘼𝙄𝙈𝙀𝙍: 𝙄 𝙙𝙤 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙍𝙮𝙖𝙣 𝙍𝙤𝙨𝙨, 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧, 𝙎𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙧 𝙎𝙢𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙤𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙚𝙡𝙨𝙚. 𝙄 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙚.

go heterosexuality - ryden kik by tetaacc

new chat with: brendbin brendbin: holy shit pete the best thing just happened to me ryroy: this isn't pete t/w: depression/suicide/homophobia/verbal abuse complete* so many typos. I'm yet to completely edit this fan fiction. please pardon the typos for now!

Only Summer Loves October - Ryden by BritishDownpour

A Ryden AU fan fiction, set in the 90's. Featuring past and current line up of P!ATD, plus members of other bands. Ryan/Brendon 1st POV. Trigger warnings: Substance abuse (alcohol + drugs), violence, sex, death, torture references. All characters are completely fictional and do not reflect the real life of the person they're based on. Please forgive me & let me know if you notice any errors in the story and I'll get these updated asap, either with spelling/grammar or not being factually correct (I'm British so bound to make some mistakes). Part One - Completed Part Two - Coming soon

La Dolce Vita by crazyjoshdun2019

[la ˈdoltʃe ˈviːta]; Italian for "the sweet life" or "the good life" These teens lives, are far from sweet. Ryan Ross is found in the woods by his friends. Something's happened to him. When he wakes up he seems fine, but his friends slowly notice, this isn't their Ryan. Along with whoever this new Ryan is, school is absolute hell. There are hookups, abuse, drugs, break ups, and parties. Drama aside, Ryan is REALLY not okay. He's becoming... a monster. Can this group of friends help their friend and save the whole town? **This is my first ever fic, so it's bad... also I update multiple times a day. This story is also Stranger Things inspired.**

Brendon Urie Want To Crawl Inside Brendon Urie by SEMENPARTY

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Casual Affair [Ryden]

It's been four years. Four fucking years since I saw George Ryan Ross for the last time. I still don't understand why he left us. Why he left me. I thought we shared a bond. Guess it wasn't mutual... But today I got called, and that call might have changed my life forever... Warnings: -Ryan is terribly fucked up in this story. He had an awful childhood and suffers from some mental problems. He's kinda depressed and stuff, so if you want a happy Ryan you have to find another fanfiction. -Sexual content. I don't put warnings in my chapters. -Boy x boy