I Don't Want To Be Saved
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Ongoing, First published Apr 09, 2015
danandphildepressionfanfictionphầnromance
Phil Lester has an awful life. His family hates him and so does everyone at his school. Phil is always depressed and thinking of ways to end all of this pain and suffering. He'd settled on suicide. Phil had everything planned out and just when he was about to, someone entered his life. This person had saved Phil, but as the boy's life continues and finally gets better, it starts to crumble all over again. Except like the last time, will Phil's new friend be able to save him, or will Phil finally end it all?
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