Anxiety // m.s
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I stood at the very edge of a cliff today. And it was so god damned exhilarating. My breathing picked up and my curiousity spiralled. It was so far down, so far.
I could feel the adrenaline in my veins as I peek over the life-threatening cliff.
I could imagine myself falling, like a feather in the sky.
My life flashing right before my eyes in seconds.
I would let the air in letting it consume me.
As I let all the pain go, I'm finally free.
"You coming?" A confused look on her face.
I nod.
And it was right then that I had to fight my hardest not to cry.
Knowing that I had the chance to end this misery.
And I let it slip from me.
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