Pain for love

This book is a gay romance about two men in the mafia. This will talk about how the main character Shane falls in love with a man who he helped kidnap then forced to joined the mafia. They were forced to go on a big year long mission together and fall in love with one another but then Shane's lover finds out that Shane was one of the people who forced him into his life now. Will they stay together? Will everything just go back to normal? Will they try and hurt each other?