Bull S-H-I-T
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Complete Thu, Apr 9, 2015<5 mins
You gave me opportunity, life with in my universe so there wouldn't be just pitch black. As one would say follow your dreams well that's what I was going for. In order to do that you put your mind, soul, & heart into place to make things function right.
I'd focus and astro project if necessary to go to my light, you once gave me, who you once were. You were the match that gave me light for see the chance of love. Thanks but you're gone now and although everything makes sense while it doesn't all at once you're not my heart anymore. I cant function right no more. Everything was bullshit &
Now you're just the black hole in my universe, the no more meditation, need for medication, now fuck desperation.
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