Why is this feeling so odd?

Time flies so fast
How I wanted to scream
I had a man in my life!
But why is this feeling so odd?
Seems weird and still alone.

You were so far yet so near in my dreams
I love you thats what I know
But why is this feeling so odd?
I still feel weary and sad
Is it because I did'nt feel I had your love?

I wanted to reach you
Hold you in my arms so tight
Cuddle with you every single day
But why is this feeling so odd?
I dont exactly know, but maybe....
just maybe...
I never had you from the very start.....