What was my life's meaning?

You are a part of the Greaser gang with Darry Curtis, Two-bit Matthews,Steve Randle,Dallas Winston,Sodapop Curtis,Johnny Cade and Ponyboy Curtis..
You guys have each other's back no matter what..
You always asked yourself what was the reason for you alive, why didn't you die already... you were hopeless... almost in everything!.. But then.... things started to change....
(Dallas Winston x Reader)