Guilt Is Bigger Than Grief

Anna finds herself troubled by her existence and the horrible way she has been living. But this did not exist when she was 7. She feels herself stuck in a void between her fading childhood and a new reality; adulthood.The memories relapse infront of her like a film. And the ONLY rule in here is : YOU MUST FORGET, TO PROCEED.

Anna is unwilling to forget because as she says
"without my remembrance of my childhood, I do not exist" .

What will a 17 year old struggling teenager with no sense of living, do to escape this void,leading to bruised adulthood or fading into the pastly childhood?

A book depicting Anna, a 17 year old girl who is too fearful to grow into an adult, for it would require her to leave behind her thought process as a kid which she refuses to abandon.