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Last year in the middle of the year things got really hard for me Iwas going threw a lot and I fell into depression.Idk what it was i could have been the counstant fight my parents did everyday or all the bullying I was dealing with but I needed a way to cope with it. I turened to music and cutting and blokeing people out. At first I thought oh its nothing I can stop when ever I want. I was stupid ive been doing it for about 2 years now and everyday i put on that fake face and say im fine. At one point I did have some important people in my life and i was kinda happy but of course it didnt last and when I fell from that I fell harder than I ever have. Everyday my parents fight i mean there divorced but still liveing together my mom cheated on my dad and my dad treats her like shit. Im the adult of my house and it sucks I lost some of my best friends bc of stupid shit ass drama and i lost the best person in the world to me ever bc of stupid people and drama. There have been meny days i wanted to kill myself but i still have important people like evelyn kenzie and dustin there are a few more people but those are most important. ..........
Well now that i got that out...
My name is Emily
my about 5,6
I play softball Pitcher,1st,3rd ,and out feild
i like bands
i sing and play guitar eletric and acustic
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