Cyclic; My Everlasting Deathbed
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Ongoing5m
Last published Wed, May 29, 2024
I have a chronic illness called Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome (CVS or CV syndrome for short) and it really takes a huge toll on me and so I decided to start writing/journaling about it and just my thoughts and feelings. As days go on and I feel like expressing my thoughts I'll come on here to do so and make sure to have the date written down every time so that I can maybe look back on it. So anyways here it is! idk if anyone will even be interested in this or not but it feels like something that can be very healing and therapeutic (:
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