Searching (on hold for a bit)
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Last published Sat, Feb 16, 2013
Everything in your life makes you feel weak and helpless, not strong. I'd never felt strong in my life, and depression only made things worse. I took it all I 'till I couldn't anymore, and I swear my life collapsed for an instant. I felt everything flash before my eyes and as I looked at it, I tried to find the will to keep going. Something to strive for.
I chose changing my life.
Turning it around, starting over.
I wanted a fresh new start, so I began. I began searching. Searching for meaning, happiness, and all the good things in life. Searching for myself.
That's what I set out to do, and I intended to until I found what I was looking for. And one thing I learned? To never back down. Ever.
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