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How Do I Live?

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Miakoda was a normal girl until she was 3 when her dad left her and her mother. Her older brother loved her and protected her until her left to another country when he was 18. Her younger sister was the favorite one she was perfect for everything. But the problems didn't stop there. They continued at school. But what if she gets married off? What if she finds someone from the mafia?! You will only find out if you read the book.

⚠️Warning this has:⚠️ 
self-h@rm
suac!dal thoughts
abuse
bulling
a threat of being killed
Ra▪︎ppe
Dr°ugs
M@rigu@n@
⚠️End of warning⚠️

⚠️The music is not mine!⚠️
⚠️Some drawings are not mine. I will tell when they are mine!⚠️
This story is about Miakodas' past because I didn't give context about her in my story "The Fallen Angel (English Version)." I hope you enjoy (music is supposed to be listened while you read). Also, some of the things are from experience that is just the bulling. If you have suac!dal thoughts, please get some help.
*Paused till October 31*
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Season 2
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Season 3
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