||TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of abuse, alcohol/drug usage, bullying, su1cidal idealization, s3lf-harm, death, strong language, racism, homophobia and transphobia. If any of these topics are triggering to you, I suggest you refrain from reading this.||
Life is more often than not unfair. It'll throw everything it can at you, try its hardest to twist and bend you until you snap and crumble under its never ending pressure and give in. Nyleve Liliac is living proof of this fact, living a life full of nothing but pain and sorrow-yet they're proof of yet another thing; no matter how much life can throw your way, in the end, things can always take a turn for the better.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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