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Saudade- Ephemeral

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If there was nothing you could do to change fate and yet you knew of the tragedy that awaited you... tell me, what would you do then? 
Would you run anyway? 
Would you embrace it? 
In a world such as this, perfection doesn't exist. Rather, in one way or another, the subconcious will of ourselves and others seems to dictate our path forward. Whether it be a wish with the purest intentions or malice held from the darkest times of our existence, these things keep us trapped in a cycle that never ends.  
We can feign ignorance, We can try to change fate, but in the end... all we can do is surrender to the inevitable and hope that all we've come to believe in...was never true to begin with.
Until then, may we embrace the fleeting moments that pass us by, and may we appreciate through our maddening dissaray that we have already done this countless times.
Until we meet again...My dear.


This is a more fleshed out version of an old project I've been working on, off and on. I will be posting the draft version for all to enjoy as I write it. I hope you enjoy it!All Rights Reserved

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Til Death Tears Me Apart Once Again [Discontinued] by Neverxinagain

"If I'm going to die anyway, there's no point in trying to live." A typical reincarnated into a villainess story, except the protagonist isn't your typical 'I want my happy ending protagonist', but a death seeker. XX 《'Til Death Tears Me Apart, I Will Always Love You》is a very successful otome game. As much praise and admiration the game recieves, it is also, however, notorious for being absurdly difficult. One wrong step and the player would be drowning in an ocean of death flags, for both the Heroine and the Capture Targets. Anything short of perfection wouldn't even get the player a glimpse of a happy ending for the Capture Target the player chose. Enter me; Just a simple, normal girl reincarnated into a game as dangerous as that, as the villainess no less. Destined to die no matter what, I think there's no point in me trying to fight fate. If I'm going to die regardless, might as well die sooner rather than later. But that desire for death causes more than just a few changes to the definite plot; From little ones that have no effect at all, to life changing ones that may destroy the world of Arraxus. So the God of the world makes a deal with me: They'll give me a peaceful and happy afterlife, as long as I get a happy ending for myself. "Let the game begin!" -- Discontinued.

𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐌𝐞 || 𝟏𝟖+ by ashluvfictionalmen

Two broken souls in the midst of a crazy world. Two souls running away from their past. There was no light at the end of the tunnel. The tunnel was cracking, slowly closing in. When these two connect, as if they were set on the same path, light creeps in through the cracks, and for or a moment, the tunnel seems to have a way out, but what if it collapses before they make it? - "You saved my life." The words come out as a whisper, I've been dying to say that. I thank god every day that he came into my life when he did. "Fuck Vivian, you don't know how much I needed you." I tear up just a little as he speaks, I don't know the last time I cried happy tears. I bring my hands up to cup his cheeks, resting my forehead against his. "No matter how much I push, I don't mean it. Please don't give up on me." My words seem to relieve him in some way as I feel his shoulders relax. "Even when I'm gone, I'll be by your side, forever." He brings his hand, sticking his pinky out. "pinky promise."I wrap mine around his, placing a kiss on his lips. Warning before you read!! This is my first book! This book will contain topics of SA, eating disorders, and mature content, if any of these things may bother you in anyway, please scroll! I hope when I finish this book I can public a clean version, with a different perspective leaving out these topics, but for now, this is how i've envisioned this story to go! Enjoy -Ash🌸

A Lifetime Away [COMPLETED✔] by Nothing_Ordinary

Author's Note: I appreciate the traction this book gets here and there but fair warning, I wrote this when I was quite young and it's paced poorly just to get my ideas stored in my head onto a digital format. Haha, so enjoy nonetheless :) We all die someday right? That may be the truth unless you are granted with the gift of immortality. Now what do you to make your time on earth, worth living? ---- When a demon is suddenly created into this world, with no knowledge and no giving purpose of why he's there in the first place, he begins to interact with the world itself and the residences among the beautiful land to realize that mortal beings don't really appreciate his presence. It's not until a girl is welcomed into his life after bumping into him one day in the forest and she seems to be different from the others. With her help, he will soon realized that it may take a lifetime away to figure out the reason he was given the chance to be apart of this beautiful lie we call living.

The Colour Of My Fate (Completed) by GarryDnovelist

Five men from different parts of the world tried committing suicide at the exact same time after going through certain hardships and ugly circumstances in their various lives. They were fed up with life and felt that there was no point to continue living. So, suicide was their only option to escape reality. As each of them was about to commit their own form of suicide, a mystical being suddenly appeared individually to them. These beings or entities were also five in number, just like the men. The mystical beings, all wearing long hoodie-type cloths that slightly covered their feet and of many different colors matching their skin tones, proposed a solution to each of the men, telling them that there is a way to change their fate for the better. Each of those men was very much terrified when they encountered these mystical beings, which looked like elves in appearance, but they accepted their offer, which they saw as a chance of changing their fate. The mystical beings did not actually tell them the way to change their fate but opened a rainbow multidimensional portal and all said the same thing, which is "FOLLOW ME IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR FATE," with a hand gesture signaling "follow me" towards the man they are individually with. These men did not hesitate but followed them through the portal with the mindset that they didn't have anything to lose by doing so, and they saw it as a chance of gaining salvation. In other words, a chance to be saved from their present predicament or situation and being improved or made new circumstantially. They don't know what awaits them on the other side they are entering, but as the story unfolds, it will all be revealed. _________________________________ INCLUDES: *Mystical elves *A mystical god *Romance *Multi-protagonist Start Date: 12/27/2023 End Date: 02/17/2024 Word Count: 62K Genres: Fantasy, Drama and Psychological © 2023 [First Edition]

House Of The Fallen by Inmate_Fishyy

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My Heart To Keep by gooseles

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Til Death Tears Me Apart Once Again [Discontinued] cover

𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐌𝐞 || 𝟏𝟖+ cover

A Lifetime Away [COMPLETED✔] cover

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Grey III - Revelations cover

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Til Death Tears Me Apart Once Again [Discontinued]

"If I'm going to die anyway, there's no point in trying to live." A typical reincarnated into a villainess story, except the protagonist isn't your typical 'I want my happy ending protagonist', but a death seeker. XX 《'Til Death Tears Me Apart, I Will Always Love You》is a very successful otome game. As much praise and admiration the game recieves, it is also, however, notorious for being absurdly difficult. One wrong step and the player would be drowning in an ocean of death flags, for both the Heroine and the Capture Targets. Anything short of perfection wouldn't even get the player a glimpse of a happy ending for the Capture Target the player chose. Enter me; Just a simple, normal girl reincarnated into a game as dangerous as that, as the villainess no less. Destined to die no matter what, I think there's no point in me trying to fight fate. If I'm going to die regardless, might as well die sooner rather than later. But that desire for death causes more than just a few changes to the definite plot; From little ones that have no effect at all, to life changing ones that may destroy the world of Arraxus. So the God of the world makes a deal with me: They'll give me a peaceful and happy afterlife, as long as I get a happy ending for myself. "Let the game begin!" -- Discontinued.