Numb // Punk Luke Hemmings
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Last published Tue, Dec 8, 2015
Numb (adj)
Being lost in nothingness.
Numb. A feeling of emptiness filled her body, as she took another inhale of her cigarette, tasting like death. Mascara running down her face, staring out of her window, watching the rain droplets racing down.
She just wanted to feel alive, to live. Heart as cold as ice, distancing herself from the outside world. Alone. She could go days without speaking to anybody. Her eyes glued to the floor, as she took steps down the imprisoned place some people called school. If someone would've told her a year ago her life would be like this, she wouldn't have believed them. She had no one to speak to. No friends left, no one would understand how she felt. Amber Rose needed someone to care, to wipe her tears.
Now, she felt numb.
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