Just feelings, thoughts and memories transformed into words, trying to express them.
I was never good with words, but that's the only way I see to understand myself better, even if it means embarrassing myself with bad written texts. If you're trying to find someone to relate to .... well, maybe you found one. Or no, who knows, right?
Somehow I found enough confidence to expose myself so deeply, so sorry if some things here let you feeling awkward or something. It's just how my brain works, and I'm in therapy right now. If you want to share something, feel free; I'm all ears.
Warning: I am a weirdo.
This will contain some thoughts of mine, some poems, some deep shit, some thoughts I have as I go through the journey of self-exploration, lmao.
Some chapters may be seen as too controversial but whatever you know. I mean, reading this is your choice. You don't have to. I mean, I'd like you all to read every chapter but it's not a story book so you may skip some chapters you don't like and read the ones that you do like.
P.S. I do not deny that my thoughts are somewhat influenced by my environment and experiences.
Also, this is the real me.
Some people think I'm quiet and cold-hearted but on the inside I'm actually a big softie with feelings. To be honest, it's kinda my fault since I hate revealing my emotions to other people or even asking for help until I have to. And even then, I start hating myself for being such a weakling.
That is a major character flaw of mine that I must overcome!