enemies to lovers

vivian has everything i could have ever wanted and i envy her for it. I try and try to be on her level but she always looks me in distaste. Once I beat her in a competition, it made her so angry and i've never been happier since that day, which is why we're enemies but i think i'm starting to have a crush on her.

amelia just makes me blood boil every time i see her. It just makes me want to scream at her. But deep down, I know it's not good for me, neither is it for her. I always look at her badly but truthfully, i've had a crush on her since second grade and it's the only way she'll actually pay attention to me and i let her win one competition on purpose to see her happy and i liked it when she was happy especially because of me.