My Roman Empire

Perhaps, I was 5 years late. Or more. I don't exactly know,and I don't exactly remember. I didn't know how with time, things stopped mattering less,and I stopped looking at the one who was willing to give it all for me- it took a whole lot of 4 years of denying his approach, getting mad when he wanted something more, switching off everything and sleeping under covers with tears I didn't understand why they were falling,and desperately doing everything to keep him out of my mind. I left Adam in the past. In the little container of my regrets.

Then I moved on somewhat, I really believed,and changed for the better until I realised it was a lost cause too. However, Evans wasn't what I wanted.

"I am the only one right?" Right.
"I am the only one who has seen you this way, right?" Right.
"I will kill myself if you go away so I'll make sure you don't." Yes, obviously.

But Evans didn't know anything about her heart at all, even after 2 years of her loyalty and dedication,she was nothing but a way to comfort himself.

Leah just ended her two years of relationship, a toxic cycle, something she has repeated previously too but with less conviction.Leah knew she needed to be out. But being in love and attachment made her realise what she really might want,all she knew was that she didn't't really want to end up alone. She was scared of messing up again. She knew she needed to let go but she didn't.

And she saw her ideals being challenged by this one existence she had come to hate over time,yet when no one's watching,she let's him take over her mind. A guilt. A regret.

Until she saw him again. And it brought back all the regrets and confusion with it. And the desire to make it a reality. She knew it was time to find herself and not drown in him, because he always fucks up. He always will.

But what if?