First and Last Fifty

| Bucket lists | Petty Debates | Everyday at an Ice Cream Parlor |

"So bakit ka nga ulit hindi naniniwala sa forever?" The thing about repetition is it gives you tolerance. And Levi, constantly asking this question gave me a high tolerance of it, somehow.

"Because I prefer the pang of reality. Alam mo kasi Levi," sumubo muna ako ng isang kutsarang ice cream bago magpatuloy. "Forever is an illusion we humans create to protect us from the cold and excruciating pangs of reality. Forever is simply the fruit of escapism. Tulad ng afterlife. It's escapism. Hindi natin kayang isipin na kapag namatay na ang minamahal natin, hindi na talaga sila nag-eexist. We could not imagine ourselves not existing. People believed in an afterlife because they couldn't bear not to." Naisip kong hindi talaga siya titigil katatanong sa akin kung bakit hindi ako naniniwala sa forever hangga't hindi ko siya bibigyan ng matinong sagot.

"It's nice of you to quote Looking for Alaska, but how does that actually answer my question?"

"Ghad stop being stupid!"

She believes that forever doesn't exist. She stands for what she believes in but this time she'll stand corrected.