33 parte Kumpleto -I am not good at giving descriptions but please give my story a chance-
"He was the calm and she was the storm."
They always say, loving someone would turn your life upside down in a good way but I believed that it's the opposite of good, and guess what? I was right.
Love was always out of my mind. I drink, eat, and breathe my work I'm the definition of work alcoholic it's the truth.
Then one day when I entered this case I knew that it will let me get where I want but for the first time in my life I was wrong. I failed!
Not in my work, I failed in my life and I think I deserve it.
My dad always tried gaining control over me and I hated it. One day I became sick of my dad's controllers over me so I decided that no one other than me would be in control of my life.
Since that day I took the remote control of my life, emotions, tears, future, work, and anything that would pop out in my mind.
If you wonder what happens if I wasn't in control the answer is I don't know or let me say I didn't know! Till one day I lost the remote control and it ended up pretty bad!
I don't fear love, I fear the idea of someone else having control over my heart & feelings because you never know if the person will cherish you and never break you, or maybe it's only me. I don't trust people it's a survival instinct. And me being a controlling freak over everything doesn't make it any better for me!
Love is like a drug, when you have it you feel at the highest place in your life but when you lose it you'll feel miserable, that's what I learned from my story of love. If I lost Serkan I know that I'll break apart and never be the same because I love him so deeply, he's engraved in my heart.
And like that when I married Serkan it was like signing a deal with the devil himself.
The name of the story has a deep meaning you come to know in the story.
** The story is under editing **
