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Anguish

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Parts 10
Time 1h 56m

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90s alcohol alcoholism anxiety bisexual british depression drugs explicit fiction lgbtq mentalhealthissues school sexualassault suicideattempt uk university

**Ongoing**
Shen Li lived in the UK during the best era, the 90's.  It was a time of change a time to discover himself, but nobody told him that just being him, just existing, would be so damn hard!  

No-one would tell him what anguish he would suffer just trying to live, just getting from 15 to 22 yrs old was torturous, watching the implosion of his family, falling into the relentless cycle of dealing with anguish using the only methods he knew how - drinking, sex and drugs.
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90s alcohol alcoholism anxiety bisexual british depression drugs explicit fiction lgbtq mentalhealthissues school sexualassault suicideattempt uk university

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